Benny Ray ****
Feb. 7th, 2006 03:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Fannish works have come to a halt as I am out of town, away from my 'puter and fashdrive. My grandfather was in a car crash and died yesterday afternoon. I think he meant for it to happen. I dunno. I feel awful. I might be able to check my flist here and there, at least I hope so, something to take my mind off of everything. I emailed all my profs which was not fun, but I haven't gotten around to telling any of my friends. It's like I can't say the words. I'm feeling very sorry for myself which is just selfish and stupid, and I really really want to hit Cheeba in the face for not calling me last night after he saw me crying.