Benny Ray ****

[chase_acow]

Fannish works have come to a halt as I am out of town, away from my 'puter and fashdrive. My grandfather was in a car crash and died yesterday afternoon. I think he meant for it to happen. I dunno. I feel awful. I might be able to check my flist here and there, at least I hope so, something to take my mind off of everything. I emailed all my profs which was not fun, but I haven't gotten around to telling any of my friends. It's like I can't say the words. I'm feeling very sorry for myself which is just selfish and stupid, and I really really want to hit Cheeba in the face for not calling me last night after he saw me crying.

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[or-mabinogi.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

I just returned from a weekend out of town for my grandmother's funeral. Have to go again in a couple weeks for the memorial. It was her time though, not quite the same as a loved one dying in a car crash.

Don't feel selfish. 99% of the time when we grieve a death is because we grieve our own loss. There is nothing wrong with that because, no matter what your faith, you see that the loved one has moved on. But do what you need to do. Surround yourself with people, lock yourself away for some quiet time, rant if you want, or crack jokes. It all comes out differently for everyone, but finding comfort is the most important thing.

[paxm.livejournal.com]

Gosh, that's horrible. I'm sorry to hear this has happened. Please take care of yourself.