The good outweighs the bad, but I still feel like I'm floundering.

[chase_acow]

Let me get some good stuff out first:

1. The Colbert/Stewart/O'Brien (srsly don't go there) was made of awesome and will probably amuse me for the rest of time.


2. I get to go play in the band at the basketball game tomorrow. Sure our team is in a bit (understatement) of a funk, but playing music always makes me feel better.

3. 3000+ words on J2 Big Bang New Idea. Yay. Though perhaps I should watch Brokeback Mountain again to make sure I'm not accidentally stealing dialog.

4. I haven't seen many negative reactions from the SGA spoilers we got today. Maybe I'm not looking in the right place, but in that case -> : )

5. New laptop! It's not held together by duct tape and it doesn't take a 1 pound can of spaghetti sauce and Harry Potter: Order of the Phoenix to operate. (srsly don't go there)



The bad:

6. One day, I will learn not to read fandom meta.

Problem A: starts with all you people being so much more intelligent than I am. Now, I'm no dummy, but I'll admit to being fairly superficial in my life/writing/reading/watching habits. Probably half of the points y'all make go right over my head.
Problem B: is that I am the incredible minority of fen from Okieland/Bible Belt/midwest/whatever. I just don't think the way that people from the coasts, Canada, Europe, or Australia think. Too bad too, 'cause you're way awesome.
Problem C: I have bizarre personal gender thoughts of which there has never been made a box to fit. I'm not a feminist, and I feel slightly like a traitor. Most days, I don't feel particularly feminine, or womanly at all. It's discomforting for this to be shoved back in my face (though admittedly, I do it to myself).

Basically those combine to make me confused, befuddled, and strangely uncomfortable. I don't know precisely where that leaves me fandom-wise. Jealous, I guess.

Yes, this is all from the SPN fallout from the last episode. I use this icon ironically. (I think, unless I'm not, but in that case I swear that I'm not being intentionally dense.)


7. I need to make a resume, but I suck at it, and I don't look particularly good on paper. I really need this job, but no one in their right mind would hire me based on my sadly lacking experience.

8. I swear to god, I will never eat one of those stupid Campbell's microwavable soup-thing. Their commercials are disgusting and make me want to puke. Every single time I gag.

9. Family strife. I swear, my brother is adopted because no one else in the fam has the jack-ass gene like he does. I can never decide whether to cry, or mace him in the face, so usually he gets the first word, the middle word, and the last word while I gape for air.

To sum up: can someone give me a girl prompt or two? I promise nothing, but I'd like to give it a try. Preferably something quirky, AUs, crossovers, upbeat, big ideas, just be nice to me, yeah? : )

SG: Teyla, Vala, Keller, Jeannie SPN: Jess, Bela, Ruby OR: give something else a try

Comments

[plsteward.livejournal.com]

Vala giving Keller some advice before she heads off to Pegasus? Or maybe Jeannie's thoughts on what Madison has to look forward to in life?

& good luck w/ the resume thing, I was just there not too long ago & I have to say it was a temp agency that saved my bacon.

[chase-acow.livejournal.com]

I seriously tie my stomach up in knots everytime I try to do resume work. It's a scary world out there.

[mausi.livejournal.com]

In regards to number 3 -- it's probably better if you don't. Then the real dialog will get stuck in your head and you'll only want to repeat it. I suggest finishing, watching, and crediting the movie for some lines if it turns out you stole some :)

[chase-acow.livejournal.com]

You know, that's a good idea. I think I'll try it that way, thanks! : )

[riverdresses.livejournal.com]

[blucola.livejournal.com]

Every so often I think I'll reply to something in fandom meta, then reason sets in and I back out of whatever reply I was formulating. I have little time to spend online and I can't truly jump into conversations the way many others are able to.

Superficial? I don't know. Aren't we all just watching shows we like? It doesn't make anyone else's opinion more important than anyone else's even if said person is, perhaps, a professor, or a scientist or a BNF.

Most days, I don't feel particularly feminine, or womanly at all. It's discomforting for this to be shoved back in my face (though admittedly, I do it to myself).

I've felt like that sometimes. It sucks.

Prompts? Cameron Mitchell, Dr Beckett and a wheelchair. Don't even ask me where that came from, it just did!

[chase-acow.livejournal.com]

Aren't we all just watching shows we like?

I'd like to think so, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it. Fandom can be a cruel, cruel, significant other who points out the mustard stains, long lines, and awkward small talk when I just want to enjoy myself. I suppose it's all a matter of perception, really. Or that I just need to get out more . . .

[blucola.livejournal.com]

I'd like to think so, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it. Fandom can be a cruel, cruel, significant other who points out the mustard stains, long lines, and awkward small talk when I just want to enjoy myself. I suppose it's all a matter of perception, really. Or that I just need to get out more . . .

I've had it happen where I thought I was carrying on a conversation with someone only to be told I was flaming or being a troll by having an alternate opinion. And it wasn't like I was saying "OMG you're so stupid" or insulting in any other fashion, I was simply stating that I saw things differently. It kept me out of quite a few message boards for a long time (well, anymore, I should say) because of all the cliques and asshatery.

[chase-acow.livejournal.com]

Aw, that's harsh. I've got to say how happy I am that my flist is for the most part intelligent and able to behave rationally should a situation arise. However, I can't say that about the rest of the internets... It's like the emotional IQ takes a nose dive.

Don't you know you're not allowed to disagree with people in their journal/thread/ever? Geeze. : )

*uses default 'people continue to suck' icon*

[blucola.livejournal.com]

I have a great flist, I really do. It's the AOL and ACLU message boards that burned me and made me leery jumping back into full time message boarding.

Love the icon. *g*

[rhianona]

Teyla and Vala: being alien and women and on a team.

[thrdstrike.livejournal.com]

I love reading fandom meta. Okay, well most of the time. But it makes me feel kinda of stupid because they make all these points that I never would have picked up on or even thought about. But it's food for thought and always interesting to read. Just depressing cause I know I could never write it. WOE.

3. I have 3 different beginnings at various lenghts for J2 Big Bang. I have decided to use none of them. Wtf. Yay for you getting a good start, though.