nightmare time

Apparently IT flagged a website on my work profile on Jan 10th - it had started to block some image content so I was annoyed if nothing else. When I got into work yesterday, my boss caught me, told me that happened, and asked about what the website was. I said I had no idea what he was talking about. He said Captain had looked at it and said it was some sort of creative writing site. I thought maybe it was Ellipsus because it wanted rights to store locally, he seemed tickled, but kept telling me I wasn't in trouble. I went okay, and internally whatever, because I of course give no fucks about this work place right now, other than making sure I get a paycheck.

Then I realized that the content blocking had started on Dreamwidth.

Then I spiraled.

I think I'd already locked all the work related entries where I specifically called out their bullshit, but obviously I DO NOT WANT MY BOSSES ON THIS JOURNAL!!!!

DANGER WILL ROBINSON, DANGER

So, I figured out how to mass access lock all my entries, which is a bummer during the most active month of the year. And when I was trying to post more. I changed all the fic access on AO3 to registered users only, which I didn't want to do. And I don't really know what else to do now. This user name is linked to all my writing, all the kink memes - which I have outgrown, but also all the everything. I love it. It's been me for decades.

Do I abandon everything? Do I just go on with my life because the cows are definitely out of the barn already? They probably don't care. They can't afford to fire me any time soon. - And I don't think I actually broke any rules.

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